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Mee moo

2011-10-21T11:38:00.001-07:00

Mobile may move mauve mish. Maybe merry marks muck. More mired manyPublished with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

The smell of cheetos in the morning

2011-06-03T06:40:00.001-07:00

Coworker dustin eating cheetos right to the left of me. The weather channel on in the break room. It's going to be 93° today. My arms and hands all bit up by damn mosquitos. Ouch. Itchy. It's always something. If it's not rocks it's fleas or mosquitos. I want to try the off clip on repellant. I'm going to try out the wordpress blog. Oh, ebay is fun. I have two things to ship out

A great night for up

2011-05-27T23:27:00.000-07:00

I need to condition to not ache with this job. On Friday everything hurts so now I just remembered lie down and put feet up up up on the wall. I said ok stay like this for 30 minutes but I'm ready to stop now. I'm too old for this shit was my mantra today. How murdock. Forget about my Oprah show reminiscing. I wrote it but don't want to rewrite it. I don't care. Do you, dear bloggy? It was 4

Subconscious landmine

2011-05-22T08:46:00.001-07:00

I like the swype feature on my phone that lets me drag my fingeracross the keys to type and often I just want to go with the different selection that pops up even though it would make no sense and not get my thoughts communicated well. My subconscious doesn't make sense to me. Where do these dreams come from? For the past two nights I have dreamt of someone I'm not friends with anymore. When I

Whenever possible be the calm before the storm

2011-05-20T13:55:00.001-07:00

I need to walk emma before the next batch of thunderstorms hit. Please no more like yesterday. There were 5 small tornados around lucas and flash flooding. Crazy. Thank god for izzy she called and we spent hours on the phone. Everyone but shalom huddled in the bathroom. I am so disappointed in auntie A for closing her basement to my critters even though they are in crates. She said just leave

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2011-05-13T23:03:00.001-07:00

Ostriches, particles, spell correct. Oh, swype. Ok, on phone now. Doing a but of a test to see if this goes through. Will it or won't it. Shalom and Squishy are here curled into a bundle. Natural silences is on my favorite sound - light rain on tropical leaves and I just took some peptol bismol. Once upon a time I liked how it tasted. Nicely chalky. But now no. ewww. There is some wind outside. I

2011-05-13T23:00:00.001-07:00

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2011-05-13T22:58:00.001-07:00

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Wild cows couldn't drag me away

2011-05-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

I'm past the thinking about it stage and am now onto the get it done stage of posting a bit about oprah show end days. This is a rambly non numbered list I had blogger on my phone which was fun to use with the swype and all but there were difficulties when it came to posting and things ended up not ending up here Pandora was fun this morning but tonight it's spewing ads I just read comments

No

2011-01-26T20:14:00.001-08:00

Dad asked if I remembered living in kansas before. Of course. I didn't like it very much. Did you like living in manhattan? No. Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.5

As good as it gets

2010-12-06T20:09:00.001-08:00

Aunt m hasn't been to see dad in weeks. I didn't ask her why. I know why. It's hard for her to see her twin brother not progressing as well we hoped he would. I'm not going to let it get me down. My objective when I see him is to make him smile. I told her that today. I talk to him. Dance/gallop to the Bonanza theme song. Rub lotion into his hands. Am just there for him. I call the kids and let

Now finally it feels like fall

2010-09-25T08:57:00.000-07:00

Questions Which cat is pooing by the front door?Exactly what is a bearcat?Should i mail or call?Will the wildcats win today?Is it there?It was great fun to accompany the gray panthers last night to the game. Dad was so excited. Ellsworth wasn't favored to win just like in 46 when dad in the 8th grade hitchhiked from Lyons to watch them play. I said he brought the team good luck. They won 42-6. We

I don't even know where to start

2010-09-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

I'm sorting through things in the living room sweating profusely as it's so hot in here and I don't know what to pack up first. I found a copy of an email my parents printed out in 98 from my brother signing off as "your little boy". Oh little boy what have you done? I guess he missed that one when he was on a paper shredding kick. There's a k state throw, moms sewing kit, a lot of blank canvases

Rumblings

2010-09-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

There were soft rumblings of thunder when I woke up and now some gentle rain. Auntie m said Lucas had a small storm about an hour ago but now blue sky. I can't put down steig larsson's the girl with the dragon tattoo. It's so good. The squatters in Lucas are moved out as we discovered on Sunday and yesterday I changed locks and brought over cleaning supplies. They left mess in the cabinets and

Sunday

2010-09-19T08:27:00.000-07:00

This posting won't go to the new blog lifeinasmallkansastown because I'm not in Lucas yet and being over here at the Lincoln house feels a bit like limbo. I'm sleeping reading playing with cats eating drinking coffee here amid the wreckage that dickie paul left but it doesn't feel like home like I've arrived yet. My stuff is in boxes over in margarets barn in Lucas. I feel mom here though I feel

What I like best of all is a cool breeze

2010-09-05T23:31:00.001-07:00

I'd like to invent a fan that could mimic how it feels coming through the window and washing over me. I feel content. And very very happy.

A day without cats is a sad day indeed

2010-09-05T23:29:00.001-07:00

From the direction of the bathroom just came a loud crashing sound. What did Georgie just knock over?

Expectations

2010-09-05T23:19:00.001-07:00

Sometimes they live up to our expectations - the f.o. (frosted orange) was yummy and very creamsicle delish and the sheer size of the place but the onion rings were soggy

Cats are better than tv

2010-09-05T23:16:00.001-07:00

Banana pudding teaches a life lesson. Do be patient eventually it will be thick. Layers are good.

Curly paws

2010-09-05T23:13:00.001-07:00

I'd like to think the cats are saying anywhere is home as long as I am with you.

Dear diary

2010-09-03T14:50:00.001-07:00

I am miserable. It is hard work being me. I cannot go into specifics right now but I will say this - it is hard work being me. I am going to have a new blog for the new life and picking out the background was interesting. Flies or flowers. And both were a bit too much. Too dark. Fade that color. Let the words shine. I'm cranky, yes I know. See the second line up above to understand.

Landslide

2010-08-20T10:43:00.001-07:00

Sail through

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Uh huh

2010-08-18T12:05:00.001-07:00

Mom was an adventure. She liked to shake things up and would go different routes just to explore. She was never a dull moment. I've always tried to carry that forward with my kids and was happy yesterday when nolen said that we always have adventures when we're together. Nolen doesn't have as good of memories of bubbie as isaballe does so when he said that I smiled thinking that I am bringing

Shirleymom

2010-08-17T18:28:00.001-07:00

You weren't just a good mom, you were a great mom. I want to mix a can of fruit cocktail in some cream cheese and put it in the freezer.

sunshine

2010-08-08T00:09:00.001-07:00

In most movies there is a line or lines that strike a chord. The ones down below from Winter's Bone and the ones today from Sunshine that I will jot down later. Mom. I love you Mom. I made chocolate chip pancakes for dinner thinking about mom. I thought she invented them. When I was little and first heard the song There ain't no sunshine when she's gone - it was about mom. Everything was

lines

2010-07-31T09:30:00.001-07:00

"Don't go asking for things that should be offered" and "We've got some of the same blood doesn't that count for anything?"

Right now

2010-07-28T17:07:00.001-07:00

Salina hospital called this morning twice. They've been phoning Dick and leaving messages and he hasn't called back. I cannot believe that he doesn't have a mobile phone or have given them the number. Mom was there for a procedure to drain fluid off her abdomen and they wanted to have permission to move her back to Lincoln. I said ok but that the Dick has power of healthcare attorney so beware of

This week

2010-07-28T08:42:00.001-07:00

So what does yesterday's fwd email say? Surprisingly it doesn't say much despite its count of words. It sounds like brother is arrogant with doctor & hospital staff. No surprise there. It doesn't say whether mom was told about her diagnosis or what the exact diagnosis is. I had a dream last week with the brother. I was walking with him up a football stadium ramp my arm around his shoulder

Last week

2010-07-28T08:22:00.001-07:00

Who can say really Why I would rather keep my name and specific location details off this blog (too late for that at the get-go haha) and how pinpointing the new distraction Foursquare is. No, it doesn't really make sense. Things that do make sense 1. Earplugs 2. Hiking 3. Really good pie 4. Exercise classes 5. Love of books From what mom tells me my brother arrives in kansas today. She sounded

Nice ice for sale 10c a pail

2010-07-21T04:31:00.001-07:00

All Katherine Heigl movies should go straight to dvd. Saw a free preview of her next one. She plays the same character in every film. Prediction: 12 years from now she will play a tough cookie and win an oscar ala Sandra Bullock. I empathize with Alec Baldwin's frustration with his child. The building manager asked me

2010-07-21T04:24:00.000-07:00

I was lost for a moment In the ache of old goodbyes Sometimes all that we can know is There's no such thing as no regrets -Mary Chapin Carpenter Before I fell asleep last night I did what I sometimes do. I imagined ice skating. Circling the rink fast picking up speed and then throwing myself into the air to complete a double axel. It's something I wish I had attempted before the years the pounds

Hash

2010-07-11T10:42:00.001-07:00

We didn't get along that well before this so why would all of a sudden we start. When I found out from my aunt that mom and dad were both in the hospital and after release they couldn't be on their own anymore I thought ok time to circle the sibling wagons and work this all out together. I called and left messages with brother & sister. Sister ignored the parents for a month and a half. She's

The nightlife and the love of boogie

2010-07-10T01:19:00.001-07:00

In these loud hours of the morning as the parade of click clicking heels go by I am wishing I had brought a jacket and that the buses ran more frequently or festival sponsor yellow cab would give me a ride home. Remember the days when the boulevard was crawling with prostitutes who would ask want a date want a date and now are there just as many only they aren't asking that? I'm looking now at

Sunny Sunday sends crowds scurrying to frolic

2010-06-20T14:21:00.001-07:00

One of my neighbors just greeted me using my first name. Wow. I can only remember his apt number. I could have called him by it. "Oh, hi 4G! How are you"? That is so much more cosmopolitan. There is a man standing and eating sunflower seeds 6 feet away from a trash can and spitting the seeds onto the ground. If I were action hero Jack Reacher I would head butt him that is if I had warned him to

omg

2010-06-19T10:18:00.001-07:00

A knock on the door that's not a census guy! Two newspapers!!

one of these fine days

2010-06-19T10:14:00.001-07:00

Someday maybe even today I'm not holding my breath the LA Times will deliver my newspaper. Moving my subscription has been so glitchy That I have yet to get a newspaper delivered here. What's with that? I went downstairs hoping to snap a picture of a freshly delivered albeit late paper but it still wasn't there. So I called again. I tweaked my hamstring. Ouch. So, no class today. No hike today.

Why blog?

2010-06-18T15:41:00.001-07:00

And why are blogs called blogs? Music is awesome. I am listening right this very minute to Elton John. Elton is awesome. I don't know about blogs.

A booty shaking good time

2010-06-10T19:03:00.001-07:00

Determined to do a class per day today was zumba. That needs an exclamation mark. Zumba! It was a salsa infused helluva good time. Of course I couldn't keep up but I did the best I could and got all nice and sweaty. It's the only exercise class where I can imagine having a few cocktails beforehand. Zumba! The other class I really like is a cardio fusion one. It's low impact and filled with

It seeks its own level

2010-06-02T18:34:00.001-07:00

Water. Suffering. Idiots. Could apply to anything really.

June gloom

2010-06-01T11:31:00.000-07:00

Today is brought to you by the vowel o and the color gray. Annoyed and Angry downstairs has turned up her phone ringer extra loud and yesterday was blasting Lebanese music. So, I didn't put the cat toys away last night. Or try to creep around after dark. What the heck! There's no winning there's just no winning! Today starts official June 2010 calorie counting. Something I can control! I will

Things that go bump in the night

2010-05-30T06:53:00.001-07:00

I don't know what exactly woke me up if it was the cats playing wrestling or the less than pleasant dreams. If I were to have the cats in cages at night they'd still make as much noises flopping against them. My earplugs have past their expiration date and are letting the sounds of that damn cooing pidgeon through. Those noises and the ones inside my head conspire to make falling back asleep

2010-05-29T13:39:00.001-07:00

I now live in a town that asethically beats the other one to bits. The air is fragranced with jasmine, roses and donuts. My old neighborhood smelled like urine and putrefaction. Yeah yeah you say but is this just the honeymoon phase? We read where you used to like your old neighborhood when you first moved in. Oh please I'm trying to walk on the sunny side of the street! I still don't like people

How many licks does it take to get to the center?

2010-05-28T11:32:00.001-07:00

Once a week I am reminded of this blog and most of the time I really couldn't care less. it seems like a lifetime ago that I poured my thoughts into a funnel of social media and now I think I have nothing to say. If only I had nothing to think! Is there a statute of limitation on forgiveness? And is it possible to forgive in a vaccum? Let's say that right now I say out loud that I forgive you

I'm not going to bite you

2009-06-15T19:16:00.001-07:00

Things I'd like to say. First of all, hi. Then how have you been. Then onward from there. But I won't. I can't.

on the road to find out

2009-06-15T12:52:00.001-07:00

What now? I gave you 4 years of my life, no I leased them didn't give them and now it's over. What will I do where will I go? Today I can only see right now as far as today and today is tidy and cleaning. The floors swiffered and vacuumed swept and dabbed. Surfaces dusted wiped down and spritzed. Items picked up put away or tossed out. It will feel so good to be in here after it's all done! And

those little plastic blinds

2009-04-19T12:38:00.001-07:00

I love the new place. Love It. but I miss my kids so very very goshdarn much. I remind myself of how little they'd be home anyway but it doesn't matter because it was the little things that I so enjoyed sharing with them. hanging out. low key. off key. just being in the same goddam room. Thinking about this makes me want to cry. Last night struck by the huge sad wave I tossed myself into

Ponderings

2009-04-17T07:45:00.001-07:00

How long will it take me to walk 1.2 miles? What is so fascinating to the cats outside that window? What's up with the very odd dreams? I dropped the silver key. Is it outside? Is it safe? I looked in the perma-noon without avail Can I be ready to leave in 16 minutes?

Sign

2009-03-06T21:08:00.001-08:00

Compost is good

2009-03-06T21:00:00.001-08:00

economic collapse

2009-01-18T21:34:00.000-08:00

This is a fancy phone. And that's a good thing as internet and now cable are gone. Just temporarily, I hope.I wonder if during these times folks are saying 'why not spring for the fancy mustard!' since so much is being cut and feels hopeless and desparate. Upgrade that phone, why not? The old car doesn't pass smogging, can't get registraton tags til it does, so grasp at the quick and easy

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driving rain and other things that would be nice

2007-07-06T23:34:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged with words here since April. just blurry photos. no text. I've let my journal slipslide too for the past week. depressed as all get out.penne is dying.

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boberto

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The sky is pink purple & blue.

2007-05-19T20:57:00.001-07:00

I don't need to fight them. Karma already did. Teenage male pattern baldness

2007-05-19T20:55:00.001-07:00

The bitter competition. They didn't clap. I want to fight them

2007-05-19T20:32:00.001-07:00

Izzy's last jazz festival at Brea Olinda high school

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Prom

2007-05-17T19:45:00.001-07:00

They are as noisy as pit vipers

2007-05-17T19:40:00.000-07:00

Our boisterous glee vexes the blonde

2007-05-17T19:33:00.003-07:00

Goodbye trucks

2007-05-17T19:33:00.001-07:00

Dirt lot

2007-05-17T19:27:00.001-07:00

Arturo with his patented Teamsters tough look

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Jackie Ricardo Danae

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Toll drum line

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Hoover orchestra concert

Fwd:

2007-05-01T00:11:00.001-07:00

Butters jr

a yawn half past another yawn

2007-04-10T00:04:00.000-07:00

I've been online researching cancer. small cell vaginal cancer that has spread to two lymph nodes. penne's got that good fighting instinct. which is maybe what it takes. I need sleep. I feel like hell.

Shalom's 2nd Birthday

2007-04-07T11:46:00.001-07:00

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Bisbee & her new scarf

Ripley in her scarf. my frist knitted dog scarf

2007-04-07T11:25:00.001-07:00

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Happy hair

walking to the office past the capital building

2007-03-23T15:58:00.001-07:00

my new hobby. knitting for dogs

2007-03-22T22:56:00.001-07:00

baby's first cast on row

2007-03-22T22:52:00.001-07:00

felipe & dvoshe sup at chick-fil-a and meet mascot

2007-03-20T19:45:00.000-07:00

I have a wooden tchotke at home that looks just like this pinata

2007-03-19T19:31:00.001-07:00

2007-03-18T22:13:00.001-07:00

My rental. How very lesbian !

2007-03-18T14:26:00.001-07:00

So lesbian

halfway through shift

2007-03-08T22:10:00.000-08:00

disappointment. tonight's weight watcher weigh-in. sundance & stephanie not making it into the american idol top 12. tucker showing aggression towards jonesy and me realizing I'm over my head and that he has to go.downs followed by ups. it's okay.

water feature, indulgent mom & starlette

2007-03-06T11:48:00.001-08:00

back patio at aroma

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tucker

2007-03-05T21:05:00.001-08:00

Hiro